Have you ever reflected on your childhood and felt like you were manipulated or used? Have you come to the awareness and realisation that you're triggered whenever you observe parents, relatives, guardians, random adults or anyone for that matter treating kids like tools and or pawns?
Protect & Defend
I can relate and I am totally triggered. How is it possible that an adult - a much bigger person through your little eyes could do this? It felt wrong, totally horrible inside that someone there to nurture, care, guide and protect could treat you this way.
Worse yet, could they possibly think you were clueless or unaware? You were totally connected to your feelings then and it felt off, it felt bad, it felt wrong but you were frozen and could do nothing; mostly, you were confused. It's even worse when adults tell you that this person is wrong for treating you how they have but they do absolutely nothing - I've often wondered about these types of people.
Take A Stand
Living in the past is not my style but you've got to realise that your beliefs and behaviors stem from your upbringing and sometimes you've got to look back and let go (not easy to do and it's certainly an ongoing process) in order to move forward and that's what I've been doing over the past few weeks.
I'm committed to firstly, standing up for myself and my beliefs and subsequently taking a stand for others when I see an injustice and feel inspired to do so. I encourage you to take a stand for whatever you believe and for someone who is not in a position to stand up for themselves - you'll be glad you did.
The worst kind of betrayal is betrayal of the self. Iyanla Vanzant
In the meantime...Give thanks. Eat clean. Sleep deep